Release the Poop!
This may be a sensitive topic for some people.
A few years ago, I was invited to speak at a virtual summit. When the organizer asked for the title of my presentation, I told her it was called, ‘Release the Poop!’. There was a pause that suggested she was questioning whether I was serious.
The funny thing is, I wasn't trying to be funny.
I had been sitting with an analogy for a while but, before committing to it publicly, I’d decided to look up the word poop to make sure I wasn't completely off my rocker. (A lesson I learned from my father and mother, look up definitions.)To my surprise, one of the historical meanings stated it referred to information, news, or the inside scoop. There are old expressions such as "What's the poop?" and "Give me the straight poop." Some sources even connect the phrase to military slang, related to the poop deck where the captain observed the crew and shared information among sailors. The moment I found that definition, the analogy clicked!
We consume information all day long. We consume conversations, books, experiences, podcasts, social media posts, observations, advice from loved ones, opinions from strangers, and lessons from our own successes and mistakes. Over time, we process those things and eventually share what we've learned with someone else. In many ways, what we communicate is the result of everything we've consumed, filtered, digested, and decided was worth passing along.
It’s okay!
She’s not talking about me.
So, what’s the Poop?
The more I thought about it, the more I realized that poop is not simply the release of waste. It is the release of something that has been processed. Information works much the same way. We take in experiences, wrestle with them, extract meaning from them, and eventually share what remains.
As you read or listen to this, you've realized that this blog isn't really about poop. Or is it?
Really, it's about what happens when we hold things in for too long.
Over the last several years, I've been carrying around stories, observations, questions, lessons, frameworks, ideas, practices, concepts, revelations, and eventually an entire book. Like many people, I kept telling myself I would release things once they were ready, once they were polished, once I knew exactly what I was doing, or once I felt confident that others would understand them the way I intended.
At some point, I realized I was becoming constipated with my own creations.
The truth is, the biggest reason I'm writing this blog today is because I'm finally releasing the largest thing I've been carrying.
After years of writing, revising, questioning, editing, reorganizing, and overthinking, I have officially published my book!
Of all the poop I'm releasing today, this is by far the biggest dump. 😂 (I know, it’s probably not the wisest marketing strategy to associate my work with a word that also means defecation.)
While most are grossed out by it, us birth workers tend to get excited when it happens…in certain circumstances.
This book contains years of observations gathered through labor and delivery nursing, childbirth education, maternal-child health, movement instruction, coaching conversations, personal experiences, and my own journey through womanhood. While the maternal journey serves as the lens through which many of the lessons are explored, this is not simply a book about having a baby. It is a book about self-awareness.
One of the places where my philosophy differs from much of mainstream personal development is in the idea that we are constantly trying to become a new version of ourselves. The more I've observed pregnancy, birth, postpartum, parenting, womanhood, human development, and my own life, the less convinced I've become that growth is about becoming someone new. Instead, I've started wondering whether the core of who we are already exists and whether the challenge is not becoming a different person but learning how to repeatedly birth that person into changing environments, relationships, responsibilities, opportunities, and seasons of life.
When I look at pregnancy, I don't see a baby trying to become a baby. The baby already exists. What changes are the conditions surrounding that baby. The available space changes, the environment changes, the developmental stage changes, and the way the baby interacts with the world changes. I think much of human development works the same way. The woman I am today is not fundamentally different from the girl I was decades ago. The circumstances are different, my knowledge is different, my responsibilities are different, and the way I express myself in various environments is different, but there is a thread that has remained remarkably consistent throughout my life.
That realization has shaped the way I think about personal growth. Rather than trying to become someone else, I've become more interested in identifying the version of myself that feels peaceful, aligned, balanced, whole, and authentic, then learning how to express that person within whatever reality I'm currently navigating. The labor room has required something different than a boardroom. The clinic required something different than a client’s couch, as does the class compared to a feminine circle, or a stage versus a computer screen. Motherhood and marriage have for sure required something different than dating. And oh my help us all, perimenopause requires something different than menstrual cycles.
The environment changes, the demands change, and the situation changes, but the work remains the same: learning how to recognize yourself, trust yourself, and allow that authentic innate self to show up appropriately within each new moment and season of life.
That, more than anything, is what Birthing That Peaceful Woman is about. It's a book about self-awareness, observation, and learning a process that can be repeated throughout life whenever circumstances change. The goal isn't to create a new version of yourself. The goal is to understand yourself well enough that you can continue birthing the most peaceful expression of who you already are, regardless of where life places you next.
You can find Birthing That Peaceful Woman here:
To help readers go deeper, I've also created a free companion reflection guide for Chapter One. It’s a lengthy one but don’t be overwhelmed. The guide is designed for you to take your time, chew thoroughly, and let everything process to help you move beyond the habitual practice of simply reading through material and consuming information. The goal is that you can fertilize your life with all you process through self-assessment, reflection, and personal exploration. The link is included inside the book, but you can also access it here:
As I reflected on this idea of releasing information, another realization surfaced.
Years ago, we had two dogs and a cat. We eventually had to buy a hooded litter box because the dogs kept trying to eat the cat's poop. I know, now I’m really getting gross.
To our family, this was absolutely disgusting. To the dogs, however, it appeared to be a delicacy. 🤮
Lately, as I scroll social media, I think about that litter box.
We are all consuming information that someone else finds ridiculous, offensive, dangerous, empowering, inspiring, foolish, enlightening, or absurd.
One person's garbage is another person's treasure. One person's truth is another person's nonsense. One person's fertilizer is another person's waste. That doesn't mean all information is equally valuable, but it does remind me that each of us is responsible for developing our own filtration system. We have to decide what we consume, what we hold onto, what we question, and what we release.
Memorial Day weekend, another layer was added to the analogy while talking with someone I care about deeply. (Smooches to her😘.). We were watching a webinar about speaking on a TED or TEDx stage. As we listened, I found myself smiling inside because I realized that TED Talks are essentially organized opportunities for people to release what they've been processing. Someone spends months, years, or sometimes decades wrestling with an idea, an observation, a lesson, a question, or an experience before stepping onto a stage and sharing it in hopes that it sparks conversation, shifts perspective, challenges assumptions, or helps someone else see the world differently.
That thought led me to think more about the fertilizer. (I know, this is really how my mind works.)
Just think about it.
Something one system no longer needs becomes nourishment for future growth somewhere else.
Maybe our stories work the same way. Maybe our experiences, lessons, observations, and insights are meant to become nourishment for someone else's growth. Not every idea is healthy and not every perspective is wise, which is why discernment matters, but there is still something beautiful about recognizing that what we release may become part of someone else's transformation.
The reason this analogy feels so personal to me is because I've never been particularly good at pooping. Those who may feel too privy to my oversharing can attest to that. After some testing this year, I learned that my body hasn't been producing enough acid to properly break things down. Things had been sitting longer than they should, fermenting, creating pressure, building up gas, and becoming increasingly uncomfortable. As I reflected on that, I couldn't help but notice how often the same thing happens mentally and emotionally. We take in information constantly but don't always make time to process it. We keep consuming without creating enough space to digest.
Over the years I've learned that different things can help. Of course the basics: hydration, fiber, movement, and sometimes a stool softener helps. Other times what I really need is something that stimulates movement altogether. As strange as it sounds, that realization has shaped the way I think about personal growth. Therapy, coaching, journaling, support groups, cohorts, circles, and even TED Talks create opportunities for people to process what they've been carrying around.
Recently a registered dietitian told me that people struggling with constipation sometimes benefit from simply scheduling time to sit on the toilet, whether they feel the urge to go or not. The consistency itself can help stimulate the body's natural process. That advice stayed with me because I think the same thing happens in many areas of life. We avoid journaling because we don't know what to write. We avoid therapy because we think we don't have anything to talk about. We avoid reflection because we're busy. Then we finally sit down, and suddenly all kinds of things start coming to the surface. It made me wonder whether those spaces don't simply hold release. Maybe they stimulate it.
As a birth worker, I can't help but take the analogy one step further. Years ago, it was common practice to give laboring mothers enemas. Part of the rationale was that emptying the bowels might create more room for baby to descend, stimulate labor, or reduce infection. Over time, evidence showed that routine enemas weren't necessary. Women poop during labor all the time, and birth workers generally don't give it a second thought. However, anyone who has spent enough time working closely with laboring bodies can appreciate how closely connected these systems are. There have been times when severe constipation appeared to be contributing to a lack of space, and there have also been times when the release of stool coincided with labor progressing more comfortably and baby continuing to descend. Whether coincidence, mechanics, or a combination of many factors, those experiences repeatedly reminded me that creating space matters.
The older I get, the more I wonder how many of us are trying to birth something into our lives while carrying things that no longer belong there. We hold old fears, old stories, old disappointments, old expectations, old identities, old information, and old wounds long after they've served their purpose. Some of those things still belong. Some don't. If we never process them, however, they continue occupying space that may be needed for whatever is trying to emerge next.
Perhaps that is why I've become so passionate about creating spaces where women can pause long enough to process what they've been carrying. I've come to believe that many of us aren't suffering from a lack of information. We're suffering from a lack of time and space to digest what we're already consuming. Sometimes what we need isn't more information. We simply need movement, reflection, conversation, community, and a place where it's safe to release what we've been carrying.
That belief has become the foundation of my work and the reason I created the offerings below.
This year I promised myself that I was going to release my voice. Not after every idea is perfectly formed, not after every sentence is polished, and not after I know exactly how others will respond. Just honestly.
So consider this my first official blog, this is my official book announcement, my announcement of what is still to come, and perhaps my biggest poop release yet.
And if anyone asks...
Yes.
She's got more poop!
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Birthing That Peaceful Woman
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Free Reflection Companion
A guided self-assessment companion designed to help you apply the concepts from the first chapter.
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